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Hannah Whitall-Smith Testimony


Hannah Whitall Smith Testimony

Sermon Transcript by Rev. Ernest O’Neill

If we once settle that our salvation is because of what God has done for us and to us in Jesus — that he’s created us in Jesus, he crucified us in him and he’s raised us up in him — then we need to go on to what you would call holiness or sanctification. But, we need to go on into it by faith — because if you go at it by works it’ll drive you crazy and wear you out. Of course, it can even unsettle you in your own salvation. So it’s very important to go on, but it’s important to go on in faith.

Now the other side of it is, sometimes I thought that some of you got so preoccupied with having an experience, a definite experience, that that became uppermost in your mind. So, I thought it was very important that that didn’t happen, and that we saw that everything is in Jesus; everything is Jesus. And I thought it was very important too that we didn’t get preoccupied with words, and formulae, and I didn’t see any need to hold to Wesley’s words, or the Methodists’ words, anymore than the Pentecostal words, anymore than the words that Sir Thomas a Kempis would use to emphasize the crucified life. I thought, “That’s unimportant.” So I was very interested in us entering and seeking after Jesus himself in all his fullness, and going for that.

But I do see that it helps a lot to have something definite to believe for. And I do see that if you drift into thinking, “Well I don’t believe my heart is cleansed. I don’t believe I am filled with the Holy Spirit. But I think that it’ll come gradually upon me.” Then I think year after year can pass, and because you’re not believing for something, nothing can happen to you. So I do see that it is important to believe definitely what God has done for us in Jesus, and to believe definitely what has happened to each one of us in Christ. So I think it’s worth reading experiences like this, because it keeps bringing that before you, and I think it opens the way for God to do all that he wants in us.

We’re going to look today at part of a book called, “Forty Witnesses.” In it the editor tried to present it as practically as he could. I would say a quarter of the testimonies are Baptists, and about half of them are Methodists, and a quarter are friends {Quakers}. It’s that kind of division as far as I can see. He explains the basis of the book. He says, “I ask them to give their testimony, these people,” and the one I’m going to read to you, Hannah Whitall Smith, of course has died. She is a friend — a Quaker.

He says, “I asked them to give their testimony and I laid out some guidelines. Number one, a brief account of your conversion giving the dates and places of your physical and spiritual births. State whether your conversion was instantaneous or gradual, clear or dim, calm or demonstrative. Two, an account of your regenerate life, your experience with the carnal mind. Number three, an account of your sanctification or second experience, stating whether it was gradual or instantaneous, quiet or emotional, whether you mistook earlier blessings for the completed work. Four, a full but concise account of your life of sanctification, your lapses, the causes thereof, the frequency perhaps, the difficulties and triumphs in becoming established in holiness.”

“It seems to me there is great need of candid testimony at this point. Evident, open-faced, not too discreet frankness is always a great power in testimony. Who can read or hear the painful tearful witness of a broken and contrite heart, without that melting sense of kinship which draws us closer to each other, and to our sympathetic High Priest?” And then, “Number five, no argument,

exhortation, or controversy. Number six, give full dates throughout if possible.” And he said, “This book is not to be denominational. It is to be simply an apostolic experience meeting on paper. Witnesses will be sought from every church.” So that’s the basis of it.

I think testimony to definite steps in your life with Jesus, is very helpful for all of us, because it gives us some kind of guidelines about what other human beings have experienced. I would say this — I see that some of the comments in the preface mention (and this book was produced in 1888) that there’s a great dearth of this kind of testament.

Now I would say since then — there’s been almost an absence of it. I don’t know if you all have sorted the thing out, but these men and women of course would have no doubt what the heart of the problem in Campus Church was. They would simply say that more and more people began to stay around instead of get on and do what God wanted them to do. But they didn’t enter in to the victorious life. Of course, you can’t stand to continue to hear of it. A preacher who keeps preaching it to you is like Chinese torture to you. You have to get rid of him at all costs.

So of course, they would have no doubt what the explanation is of it. I think it’s very important that we realize that God has given us something very precious and very valuable, and that the world is dying for it, and that it’s not only our society that is grossly immoral, but the normal Christian life is lived at a very low ebb in these days.

Here’s Hannah Whitall Smith’s testimony: “I was born in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania second month, seventh day, 1832. I was converted in Philadelphia in 1856, in my 26th year. My conversion was very clear and unmistakable. After long years of legal striving in which I resorted in vain to every expedient my soul could devise, for gaining the favor of God and the forgiveness of all my sins, I was taught to see my own utter helplessness in the matter, and to trust in entirely and only to Christ to save me.

I knew that I was born again; and never from that time have I doubted this. Never have I had a moment’s fear about my acceptance with God, or my present possession of eternal life. As time passed the Lord graciously led me into the knowledge of much truth. My guarded education in the Society of Friends, of which I was at the time a member, had already separated me very much from the vain fashions and amusements of the world. And my chief interests were all centered around the religion of Jesus Christ, as the only object really worthy of serious thought or attention.

But my heart was ill at ease. That I grew in knowledge I could not deny, but neither could I deny that I did not grow in grace. And at the end of eight years of my Christian life I was forced to make the sorrowful admission that I had not even as much power over sin as when I was first converted.

In the presence of temptation I found myself weakness itself. It was not my outward walk that caused me sorrow, though I can see now that was far from what it ought to have been; but it was the sins of my heart that troubled me — coldness, deadness, want of Christian love, intellectual apprehension of truth without any corresponding moral effects, roots of bitterness, want of a meek and quiet spirit — all those inward sins over which the children of God are so often forced to mourn.

I could not but see that although I was not under law but under grace, still sin had more or less dominion over me, and I felt that I did not come up to the Bible standard. The Christian life

contemplated there was a life of victory and triumph; my life was one of failure and defeat.

The commands there given to be holy, to be conformed to the image of Christ, to be blameless and harmless, the sons of God without rebuke, seemed almost a mockery to me; so utterly impossible did I find it to obtain any such standard, for I made very earnest efforts after it. At times I went through agonies in my efforts to bring about a different state of things. I resolved, I prayed, I wrestled, I strove, I lashed myself up into the belief that all I held most dear in life could continue to be mine only as I attained to more faithfulness and devotedness of walk. When sickness came upon any whom I loved, many were the vows recorded in the depths of my soul that, if God would but spare their lives, I would henceforth serve him with all my heart. But all was in vain, and it seemed even worse than vain.

“When I would do good, evil was present with me,” {Romans 7:21} and I could see no hope of deliverance except in death, which by destroying the body of sin to which I was chained would thus break the yoke of my bondage.

At times some new discovery of the truth of God in the Bible would seem for awhile to carry me above temptation, and to make me more than conqueror. And my heart would rejoice at the thought that now at last I had found the secret of living, and that henceforth my continued defeats would be turned into continued victories. But after awhile as the aspect of truth in which I had been rejoicing became familiar to me, I found to my further sorrow that it seemed to lose its power, and I was left as helpless as ever, only under deeper condemnation because of the increased responsibilities of increased knowledge.

There was also another thing that troubled me. I had been taught, and I found in the Bible, that it was my privilege to know the indwelling of the Holy Spirit as a leader and guide to my soul, and I believed that he was indeed dwelling in me, but I felt that experimentally I knew very little about his teaching, and had no actual consciousness of his presence. That it would be an inestimable blessing thus to know him, I realized more and more as I discovered the utter powerlessness of my own wisdom and judgment to guide me aright, and felt increasingly that only as the Spirit accompanied and energized my service, was it ever of any avail. But here, too, all my efforts seemed worse than useless, and I found myself only involved in continually increasing perplexity and darkness.

At times the belief forced itself upon me that all Christians were not like me, that the lives of some were full of a degree of devotedness and depth of communion to which I was a stranger, and I wondered what their secret could be. But supposing it could consist in nothing but their greater watchfulness and earnestness, I knew of no resource but to seek to redouble all my efforts, and to go through the same weary round of conflict and struggle again, only of course to meet with the same bitter defeat.

Such was my life, and in spite of much outward and earnestness and devotedness I felt it to be a failure. Often I said to myself that if this was all the gospel of Christ had for me, it was a bitterly disappointing thing. For though I never doubted the fact of my being a child of God, justified and forgiven, a possessor of eternal life, and an heir of a heavenly inheritance, still when my heart condemned me — and this was almost continually — I could not have confidence toward God, and I was not happy. Heaven itself seemed to lose its charm to the heart that was far off from God.

I began to long after holiness. I began to groan under the bondage to sin in which I was still held. My whole heart panted after entire conformity to the will of God, and unhindered communion with him. But so thoroughly convinced was I that no efforts, or resolutions, or prayers of my own would be of any avail, and so ignorant was I of any other way, that I was almost ready to give up in despair.

In this time of sore need (1863) God threw into my company some whose experience seemed to be very different from mine. They declared that they had discovered a way of holiness wherein their redeemed soul might live and walk in abiding peace, and might be made more than conqueror through the Lord Jesus Christ.

I asked them their secret, and they replied, ‘It is simply in ceasing from all efforts of ours, and in trusting the Lord to make us holy.’ Never shall I forget the astonishment this answer gave me. ‘What?’ I said, ‘Do you really mean that you have ceased from your own efforts altogether in your daily living, and that you do nothing but trust the Lord? And does he actually and truly make you conquerors?’

‘Yes,’ was the reply, ‘The Lord does it all. We abandon ourselves to him. We do not even try to live our lives ourselves; but we abide in him and he lives in us. He works in us to will and to do of his good pleasure, and we hold our peace.’

Like a revelation, the glorious possibilities of a life such as this flashed upon me, but the idea was too new and wonderful for me to grasp. I had never thought of Christ as being such a Savior as I now heard him described to be. I had known indeed that he gave me life in the first place as a free gift without I myself being able to do one single thing toward obtaining it except to believe and to receive. But that he should now live my life for me in the same way, without my being able to do anything accept believe and receive, surpassed my utmost conceptions.

I had learned how to trust him for the forgiveness of my sins, but I had always trusted myself to conqueror them. I had seen the sad error of legality as regarded my redemption, but I was altogether legal in my thoughts as regarded my daily holy living. I had never dreamed of trusting the Lord for that, and I did not know how to do it.

So I went to work harder than ever. Over and over again I tried to dedicate myself to God. I sought to bind my will with chains of adamant, and to present it a holy offering before the Lord. I lay awake whole nights to wrestle in prayer that God would grant me the blessing he had granted these other Christians. I did everything, in short, but the one thing needful. I could not believe; I did not trust; and all else was worse than useless. But perhaps not altogether useless, for it taught me very effectually one necessary lesson, and that was my own utter and absolute helplessness.

At last, however, I saw clearly that I was indeed truly nothing; that I needed the Lord just as absolutely for my daily living as I had needed him in the first place to give me life. I discovered that I was just as unable to govern my temper or my tongue for five minutes, as I had been long ago to convert my soul. I found out, in short, the simple truth, which I ought to have learned long before, that without Christ I could do nothing; absolutely nothing. I saw that all my efforts, instead of helping, had only hindered the work.

Then I began anew to search the scriptures. I found that the salvation he had died to procure was

declared to be a perfect salvation, and that he was able to save to the very uttermost. I found that he offered himself to me as my life, and that he wanted to come into my heart and take full possession there, and subdue all things to himself. I felt that this was indeed a gospel to meet my utmost needs, that such a salvation as this would satisfy the widest limit of my longings, and unspeakably I desired to appropriate it as mine.

But here I was met by another enemy, whom I thought forever slain. It seemed as if I could not trust the Lord, as if I was actually afraid to do so. Legality had been met and conquered, but unbelief still remained and threatened to shut me out altogether from the promised land of rest.

Although God had declared the Lord Jesus to be a perfect Savior sufficient for my daily, and hourly needs, I could not believe he would really prove to be so. It seemed too great a trust to repose in anyone, even in the divine Savior. But in his infinite love he broke down this last remaining barrier also.

He sent to our house (in 1864), a young man whose soul was in great darkness because of doubts concerning his salvation. It was my privilege to point him to Jesus Christ as a Savior just suited to meet his needs, and to tell him of the completeness and present reality of the salvation purchased by him. And as I talked to him and set forth the boundless love of Christ and his divine power to save to the uttermost all who come unto God by him, my heart was rebuked for my own unbelief. Could it be that the Savior who was willing to forgive the sins of the rebel would be unwilling to deliver the longing soul of one who loved him, and panted to follow him from the present power and dominion of sin? Was I to urge another to believe that his prayers for forgiveness were answered, when I did not believe that my prayers for conformity to the image of Christ were or ever would be? My heart shrank back at the thought of such inconsistency, and the last barrier of unbelief was broken down.

The Lord revealed himself to me as so worthy of my utmost confidence that I could not help trusting him. He showed himself to me as a perfect, and complete, and present savior, and I abandoned my whole self to his care, telling him that I was utterly helpless, that I could not feel, not think, nor act for one moment as I ought to do, and that he must do it all for me — all. I confessed my own absolute inability to dedicate myself to his service, my powerlessness to submit my will to his, and I cast myself as if it were headlong into the ocean of his love, to have all these things accomplished in me by his almighty working. I trusted him utterly and entirely. I took him for my Savior from the daily power of sin with as naked of faith as I once took him from my Savior from its guilt. I believed the truth that he was my practical sanctification as well as my justification, and that he not only could save me and would save me, but that he did.

The Lord Jesus Christ became my present Savior, and my soul found rest at last. Such a rest that no words can describe it — rest from all its legal strivings, rest from all its weary conflicts, rest from all its bitter failures. The secret of holiness was revealed to me, and that secret was Christ. Christ made unto me wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification, and redemption.

At first my faith was but a weakened, wavering one. Almost trembling I hung onto Christ moment-by-moment, saying continually in my heart, ‘Lord I trust thee. I trust thee. Look, Lord, I am trusting thee.’ But I found to my astonishment that it was a practical reality that he did deliver me. When temptation came, I did not try to conquer it myself, but at once handed it over to him saying, ‘Lord Jesus, save me from this sin. I cannot save myself, but thou canst and wilt, and I trust thee.’ Then I left it with him, and he fought for me while I stood by and held my peace,

and he always came off conqueror.

Thus daily my faith grew, and I was able to apprehend more and more of that for which I was apprehended of Christ Jesus. I longed to grasp the utmost limits of the deliverance from sin, purchased for me by the death of Christ. Just what this limit was I did not understand, either in its nature or extent, but I could leave it all to him.

I did not indeed know what was the meaning of that scripture wherein we are told that the body of sin was destroyed by the crucifixion of Christ, and where we are commanded therefore to reckon ourselves dead to sin. But I did know that it meant something which would enable us henceforth not to serve sin, but to bring forth fruit onto holiness, and also that it must mean something which would please and satisfy God. And since this was God’s purpose in the death of Christ, I saw that it must be my privilege to enter into it, although in myself so vile and unworthy. And I saw, also, since Christ had finished the work God gave him to do, that my part in it could only be to accept the gift from his hand, and that that gift therefore was mine the moment I trusted God for it.

I did therefore trust him definitely for this very thing. And I, even I, was enabled to ‘reckon myself dead indeed onto sin, but alive onto God and Jesus Christ my Lord.’

Thus that flesh, which I had discovered to be so utterly corrupt and incapable of improvement, I now found could be reckoned to be dead, and consequently abandoned. Necessarily I had, at first, only a very imperfect comprehension of what this meant, but practically I found from the very first, that just in proportion as by faith I did abandon the flesh or carnal nature in me and reckon it to be dead, so also did the flesh lose its power over me to conquer or enslave.

And “according to my faith” I have found it done unto me, ever since. Whenever I, by faith, reckon myself to be dead, I find I am practically dead. In putting off the old man by faith and putting on the new man, I find that the one is actually put off and the other actually put on. My soul has entered into that interior rest or “keeping of Sabbaths” which the Apostle Paul, in Hebrews 4:9, declares “remaineth for the people of God” and I am dwelling in the “peaceful habitations” and “quiet resting places,” promised in Isaiah 32:18. Not that there are no conflicts. Ah no! But the battle is no longer mine but Christ’s. Ah, no! But the battle is no longer mine, but Christ’s.

And now, if I’m asked what is my life; with a deep and abiding sense of my own nothingness, I can only answer that, insofar as I am faithful, Christ is now my life. Once I had truth about him, but now I have himself! Once I tried to live in my new nature independent of him, now I am joined to him in a oneness that is indescribable, knowing that I have in truth no other life but his, and seeking more and more to live only there. Not that I never leave this blessed abiding place and walk in the flesh again, to my unspeakable regret. But Christ is always the same, and the way of access by faith is always open. And thanks be unto God, he is faithful to keep that which I have committed to him, and more and more does he confirm my soul steadfast and immoveable in him.

All the former period of my Christian course seems comparatively wasted. I was a child of God, it is true; but my growth was stinted and my stature feeble. But when this secret of faith was revealed to me, I began to grow, and the dedication which was before impossible to me became the very joy of my heart.

Since the time of my entrance into this life I have gone through many experiences and have outgrown many dogmas, and in some respects my views have greatly changed, but through all my attitude of soul

has remained unchanged. I have sought to keep a continual spirit of surrender and trust, and have tried to be obedient to the best light I knew. When I have failed, it has been the result of either disobedience or lack of faith, and it has needed only a return to the place of perfect surrender and entire trust to restore my soul again to its place of rest. At every moment when surrender and trust have been active, the Lord has never failed to respond with his wondrous grace. Moreover, he has never failed to make even my mistakes work together for my eternal good.

In short, I have found it to be more and more true, every day of my life, that Christ is a complete and ever present savior, and that if I but commit all my interest to him, I have as a dear child once said, nothing to do now but ‘just to mind.’ To say ‘thy will be done’ seems to me more and more the sweetest song of the soul. The deepest longings of my whole being are met and satisfied in God. He is enough!

Believing, resting, abiding, obeying — these are my part. He does all the rest. What heights and depths of love, what infinite tenderness of care, what wise lovingness of discipline, what grandeur of keeping, what wonders of revealing, what strength and weakness, what comfort and sorrow, what light and darkness, what easing of burdens I have found; what a Savior, no words can tell!

‘Whom have I in heaven but thee? And there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.’”

Let us pray.

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